Why have I the quest of the avenger? Why must I?

I suppose it is due manily to the fact that shit keeps coming at me.

I have tried to escape it when I was young by dis-associating with the area in which I had lived-hitch hiked to San Fran and still it came then to Seattle and still it came-then from state to state to state and still it came.

I cannot avoid this dragon as it follows me to all ends of any universe and so I have learned long ago that each day I will face this dragon and need, once again, to conquor it.

My life has been lived seeking opportunities that will take me somewhere and up until I had children it was me and only me.

From birth I have been conditioned for the part I am playing now at the age of over 50.

Thoroughly conditioned to be street smart as well as book smart and have the ability to match wits with any man and yet not display that ability, seemingly, but actually always doing so invisibly.

The obvious realties are reasoned and considered as you see two men one runs in circles telling everyone loudly that he is a great and powerful ninja and the other man sits in silent contemplation unmoving and in peace.

Now which one of these men are actually most likley to be a great ninja?

Obvious- the Ninja would not say such things.

So again why must I avenge and what exactly am I avenging?

Am I a Man of Lamancha? (Fighting invisible creatures) I doubt it.

My creatures have oppressed me my entire life.

Those of poverty and severity when work is available the conditions exist as antagonistic and demeaning, not only in the fact that I am working , no, more the health risks I suffer with as well as the abuse of the men in charge and their overbearing and viscuos attitudes "because they can".

Those that hold the "Us against them" attitude must realize that they are actually creating the "them" and through their own ignorance proceed to educate their children with these monstrous attitudes and so this is one quest to change in the social behavior patterns of mankind.

Mainly the oppressions pressed down upon us by an ignorant social system and structure (worldwide).

I can say that I would change the system as easily as I would say that I could build a space shuttle-single handedly.

Not gonna happen- However if I have the resources to hire the people that can build it effectively or have done it before and I advise these people on how I would like my shuttle built well then I have conquored a dragon, you see, it is the proper usage that we are missing as a nation in general.

I can go ahead and say that I am out to change the world but I feel now that it is too late for that- I did that long ago- I do not care for the credit but I do care for the results of my actions to be effective and powerful and it is only through the hands of those that have accepted the responsibilty of this power and system that I offer that will build this shuttle.

I want the people to stand back and look at the thing that they created and say "We did it."

"We took a chance and we made a difference and we took this time in our lives to do something good and powerful and make a real difference for the good." In the final analysis do you know that you did your best?

You can stand defiant and face the wind with the confidence that you have vanquished your adversaries.

I am not interested in credit for others works.

I would prefer to be a positive inspiration and helpful means for them to achieve these great things.

The motivating force must exist or no action will occur.

What do you do well? Your fort'e or occupation? Do you consider youself intelligent?

Consider the things in life that you have learned nothing about.

Do you know what those things are?

Do you know what you do not know?

Are you willing to conquor your own defects and ignorance like a virus that clings to the fibers of your existence?

This will involve learning and studying. Are you willing to do that?

This is not a fickle question and has everything to do with you becoming more tomorrow than you were yesterday.

Better, stronger, smarter, happier, safer, healthier and more confident.

If you don't want these things you are not meant to work with me.

If this makes sense then take it easy and as it comes as fortune favours the patient hand in the long run but the reverse of this is the hesitation causing defeat as is more the occasion with defeat in battle.

The fact is that we are more commonly battling ourselves and must be certain these are not an issue or ones that will be handled effectively as we all have many forms of dragons.

The ones that will destroy your life and yet there they are invited into your own livingroom, by you and you have developed a anti symbiotic relation with the killing thing with an excuse dealing with a self defined weakness but in essence this should only be seen as selfishness and gluttony and although we are not so precisely biblically aligned as a rule these are unacceptanble traits that need handling as known dragons.

Realizing the multituudes of people that could be helped with the abilities you gain from reigning the beast and riding it without the need to have it andf show it that you control it then you can spread your newfound power to others that are wallowing in the desperate worlds that men create for themselves.

This all sounds noble and well but the eventual final conclusion is a general public that lives cleaner and cares more and when you get the masses caring more and working in a more positive direction the chain reactions are inevitable.

But the few invisible trainers of the unseen several that hold the awareness of the many unheard of that carry forth for and with the masses of nations within nations to unify with the singular attitude in peace and only the informed have the key to the door of the sigil.